villanellefc:

when phoebe bridgers said i’ve been running around in circles pretending to be myself. why would somebody do this on purpose when they could do something else? drowning out the morning birds with the same three songs over and over. i wish i wrote it, but i didn’t so i learn the words. hum along ‘til the feeling’s gone forever. took a tour to see the stars but they weren’t out tonight so i wished hard on a chinese satellite. i want to believe instead i look at the sky and i feel nothing. you know i hate to be alone, i want to be wrong. you were screaming at the evangelicals. they were screaming right back from what i remember. when you said i will never be your vegetable because i think when you’re gone it’s forever. but you know i’d stand on the corner embarrassed with a picket sign if it meant i would see you when i die. sometimes when i can’t sleep it’s just a matter of time before i’m hearing things. swore i could feel you through the walls but that’s impossible. i want to believe that if i go outside i’ll see a tractor beam coming to take me to where i’m from. i want to go home.