Dude why is it so hard to stop feeling lonely because in the day I swear I crave being alone and being contented by myself so much but when the night falls I just… feel like I no longer have the ability to be by myself. My thoughts become so loud and I stare out the window craving for this intimacy that I genuinely have been longing for my whole life and I never tell anyone about this because it scares me how much I want to love and be loved. I know I’m still young but if my life ends before I could be in love I Guess this life will just be… like that. In other words I dont ever expect myself to love easily and I can’t help but to feel like this void will never disappear ever like even in the future if I am capable of love I think I will still continue to feel like I’m missing something. But like I have no idea what it is and why I’m feeling this way